Real talk this week focuses on and around a subject close to my heart: mum guilt and that feeling that you aren’t enough.
So, raise your hand if you have suffered or are suffering from this, sometimes, overwhelming experience. Go on, don’t be shy! I do! Absolutely!
I have been lucky enough to have been given the opportunity to test out an amazing Australian app for mamas called The Kite Program, the first personal development app in the world (!) designed for mums by an extraordinary one, the talented Hannah Hardy-Jones.
The first kite for me: Guilt be Gone; a mini program (or Kite) focuses on working through all things mum guilt by the way of completing one exercise per day until the Kite is finished. I have been journaling my answers and thoughts so I have a record to reflect back on at a later time. Am I the only one who re-reads their journal every now and then? Oh my gosh, don’t answer that!
What are your main issues and triggers around this subject? For me it is the serious FOMO (fear of missing out) of not being able to drop off and collect my son from school myself due to my work load, that dark dreaded feeling that I’m not enough, and my perception that I am a “part-time mum”.
It was so cathartic for me to write out how and what I felt, just in the moment, and completing this first exercise as truthfully as I could. I’m excited to see what tomorrow’s exercise is!
I love this app and also the mindfulness button: quick activities that can be done on-the-go for the busiest of mums. I am trying to savor these mindfulness activities to one per day and not rush through them! Clearly I am a huge fan.
Curious about The Kite Program? Click here and check out this amazing app and follow the program on Instagram: @thekiteprogram
You are enough mama,
I have to be honest: the last week has been one of the most trying weeks of my life and it can definitely be allocated to my top five of mentally exhausting, emotionally depleting and draining times of my existence; no dramatic-ness intended. This time is up there with the breakdown of my previous marriage and the diagnosis of ASD for my son, but I got through those chapters and even a week later I am feeling the weight already lifting from my chest.
To my small circle of people who I am connected to and I keep close: I am back. There were a couple of days where I just didn’t feel like people-ing and I really only wanted to have my home tribe near, speaking to me and me to them. I sort refuge reflecting through journalling and just sort of floating through my social media feeds commenting, sending love and being partially present. I have had my week of wallowing and now it is time to get back to my goals, moving on while also looking forward to my next trip to New Zealand.
So, here is to the upcoming week, the first official week of March and the Autumn season. I feel a certain reset in the universe and myself.
I am back,
Just an Endo mama and an ASD boy loving essential oils as well as the plant-based and wholefood life.